update

sometimes i hate life,
like really i do
and im not in that mood to think
"oh things could be worse, or
there are others worse than you"
right now im gonna take the time
to be selfish (which we all need to do sometimes)
ive really put my all in it,
everything i have....and this is what i get..


for once in my life,
im happy to go HOME to escape
from all this work -- the papers, compositions,
exams, screenplays, quizzes, tests, reading, recitations
like ahhh im so happy to get away and i actually
really like school. but this semester has been the worst
from the outside looking in, youd think the opposite --
who i am outside of 314 lewis hall is a different person than
the girl
whos alone and sad and confused and miserable.
i usually end up burying myself in work to distract myself
or play corinne bailey rae until i fall asleep.
i cant wait to get HOME because not only can i escape
my schoolwork but also the many personal issues which
i feel like i dwell on and think a lot about while im here at
school....it only adds to the misery...but friday morning --
things change


and im SO happy.... a whole week and half for ME
oh and my birthday is thursday...nothing special though
since i have a screenplay, directors notes, two compositions due
oh JOY :)