*sigh*

im starting to annoy myself. so i know i must be annoying others, especially him.

i wonder if im doing this on purpose. am i unhappy? no. but im confused as to why i have transformed into this ball of stress. i feel that ill end up pushing him away, i just dont know when that will be. i hope he can see past it and my terrible ways, i do mean well. and a part of me thinks im sabotaging my own relationship by being this annoying bothersome girl, but then a part of me feels justified for the questions/concerns i raise. maybe i just need attention because im constantly in some corner of the library. maybe...i just miss him.

i wish someone could pick my brain and figure me out. i could use the help, WE could use the help.

flaws and all

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day
I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I mean

-- beyoncé