4days.

now i know what it is. now i know what this feels like.


he may not be "mine" but ill claim THIS how i see it -- and "this" is referring to the feeling and thoughts i have running through my mind, that have been running through my mind for so long now. now i know why it is i start to blush, hide, smile, laugh, giggle, make noises -- when i look into his eyes, i see it all.

to elaborate would probably be too much ... but at the same time , seeing it all in one pair of eyes, one face, and one man is all too scary for me, it brings not only satisfaction and happiness but fear of the unknown, fear of the doubt, fear of the possibilities. and because of this...we will continue to be just he and i -- whether i like it or not / wish that it was US, this is what it is. i cant lie, i am happy about the situation i am in but i know that it can only be a temporary/non-serious sort of thing and well with that i feel everything just falls apart... ?


=/