*sigh*

im starting to annoy myself. so i know i must be annoying others, especially him.

i wonder if im doing this on purpose. am i unhappy? no. but im confused as to why i have transformed into this ball of stress. i feel that ill end up pushing him away, i just dont know when that will be. i hope he can see past it and my terrible ways, i do mean well. and a part of me thinks im sabotaging my own relationship by being this annoying bothersome girl, but then a part of me feels justified for the questions/concerns i raise. maybe i just need attention because im constantly in some corner of the library. maybe...i just miss him.

i wish someone could pick my brain and figure me out. i could use the help, WE could use the help.