"nothing even matters"

i have neglected this wonderful blog
for far too long, and sadly
i am not returning tonight to spill out
my heart or the many thoughts racing thru
my mind, however i will share one thing
that touched my heart - forever and always -
because of its sincerity, its honesty, its
directness, but perhaps the most important -
the sayer himself.


to be deemed the prettiest girl in the world. to be
told that no one else compares, and i have no reason
to live this life of insecurity that stems from my childhood
to my present, that is afflicted on me by the friends i keep
and the women i see all around me. he said i am the prettiest
girl in the world. that i am beyond beautiful, and then he
began to list what i saw as flaws, but what he saw as proving
his point - how beautiful i was.

it was not the mere idea of being complimented, being showered
with affection from the one that holds my heart in his two strong hands.
it was that a fairytale became reality. girls grow up waiting
for that right guy to tell them all the right things...
and here i am, smiling and controlling the butterflies
because i have found him and he knows and believes all the right things :)


xx